Over the last 2 nights Jeff has engaged me in almost debates. While I love to debate, he has always hated it, so I have learned to take my debating skills elsewhere. The topics were not ones he cares much about, so it wasn't heated debate (except on my end a bit), it was more hilarious to see him arguing the topics. Jeff and I rarely fight anyway, so this wasn't something ominous, more entertaining.
Two nights ago Jeff was talking about the upcoming concert he is going to with a guy from work. It was his favorite band 10 years ago and they are having a reunion tour, so he is really looking forward to it. He made some goofy comment about how I used to be 'cool' and now I am part of the institution instead of fighting against it. He has a very sarcastic sense of humor, so this was not said in a mean way, it was just Jeff. Anyway, I replied that the band, by having a reunion tour undoubtedly to just make money, is actually showing that they are 'part of the problem'. I am about as counter-cultural as you can get. I stay at home with the kids, home school them in a style that shocks most people even more than the school-at-home style, take the kids to a Naturopath instead of a Pediatrician, have babies at home instead of a hospital, set my own immunization schedule and am an Independent politically. He feigned indignation that I would call his band sell-outs, and argued that you must be in the mainstream in order to swim against it. So that means our children cannot be 'cool' and counter-cultural because they are not fighting against 'the system' daily like the 'cool' kids are. I commented that there is always the risk that if you have kids in the 'mainstream' that they will like it and not retaliate, but Jeffrey said he has more confidence in the kids than that. It was very funny, and you know, I can live with being called 'part of the system' if it means I can keep doing things the way I am.
Then last night we were discussing whether we should fix his car or not (in addition to the front end damage, the alternator has now gone out), and I went online to check alternator prices at a few stores and the main page Explorer opened to had the headline "Madonna Jeered and Booed at Concert." Jeff asked why she was booed so I clicked the link and read the article about a concert in Romania where Madonna commented to the attendees something along the lines of "discrimination is bad, and the way the Romies and Gypsies have been treated here is wrong." This got her a lot of boos and jeers, so she went on to say something about Romanians that was less offensive which got her cheers, then she followed up with something like, "homosexuals are also discriminated against and that is bad." She was then booed and jeered more. A couple concert attendees commented afterward that Madonna had no business saying what she did and that she has no idea how people live in Romania (a really good point I think). Jeff threw out that people shouldn't criticize Madonna because she makes more money in a single night than they make in a month (they being everyone at the concert). I laughed and we went back and forth a little on it mostly tongue-in-cheek - it was definitely entertaining (though I got a bit upset in the beginning before I realized he was goofing off).
These were just two small scraps of conversation over two evenings, but it definitely lightened the mood. I love it when he reminds me to not take things too seriously, which I have a tendency to do.
Friday, August 28, 2009
Thursday, August 27, 2009
An Interesting Read
No Logo: Taking Aim at the Brand Bullies by Naomi Klein was at times enlightening, frustrating and memory stirring. The book examines the changes in marketing and employment between the 70s and late 90s in big multinational companies of the Western world. It was published in late 1999, so much of the information is outdated, however, it is laid out well enough that I can see in some ways why society is the way it is today. The book is divided into 4 sections:
No Space, No Choice, No Jobs and No Logo that lay out where branding came from, where it has taken us and where we are going as Western society (Western Europe and Canada are included in much of the discussion, but the focus is on the USA).
No Space: Starting with a brief history of advertising in the early 1900s through the late 1990s, it is possible to see why there are very few spaces left today where companies do not display their logos. People even walk around advertising for companies and they have paid for the privilege to wear the logo. With corporate sponsorship that requires recognition with a logo, most community events and even places like parks are now 'marked' territory.
I don't know enough of my own history to really have an opinion on this. It seems to me that as long as there have been cities, there have been advertisements. Sure, the ads have changed over time, and with the invention of the television those ads are pumped into people's homes with much more intensity than they have been in the past, but when you have people who are dependent on others purchasing their goods (businessmen), you will have advertising of one sort or another. Whether it is the young orphan paid to stand on the street and call in customers that you can hear from your small apartment, or signs pasted on brick walls, ads have been around a long time. The guilds in the Middle Ages even had rules that reflected multiple producers of goods who had to advertise to compete with each other. I am willing to go so far as to say the targeting of children on TV, in schools and in community events has changed things by taking a particularly susceptible group and convincing them that materialism is a good thing and that they must "buy, buy, buy" to be happy. Ms Klein does not point this out specifically, but, as usual, I came to a different conclusion than was intended.
No Choice: here is where the book got a bit meatier. The business plan for companies like Wal-Mart, Starbucks, Borders, etc is laid out. The way these companies compete is by going into an area with the goal of "saturation" - running their competitors out of business so they are the only option. Another part of "saturation" is "synergy" where the big companies merge to become a super-company that then has even more control.
However I look at it, I can't help but think of the old Trusts from back in Theodore Roosevelt's day. My public school education left me a bit spotty on the specifics of the old Trusts (maybe it is time to work on US history with the kids this year :) ), but I believe the issue was large companies owning so much that small businesses could not compete. Not knowing all that much about economics beyond the basics, it is hard to have a well-reasoned opinion. I agree with Ms. Klein (Morgan Spurlock of Supersize Me fame brought it up too) that it is sad to see shopping centers with the same stores that all look the same in every major city across the country. The unique culture that used to exist in the different regions across the US, has become a homogenization of identical temples to the various gods of shopping. I am guilty of going to Starbuck's and enjoying it, but I don't think it is because of the brand posted outside the store. If there were other coffee shops that met the need Starbuck's meets I would probably shop there. However, there is something nice about knowing what to expect when going to one of the big box stores like Wal-mart, so I guess I am a bit of a hypocrite. I suppose ultimately the issue is not with a popular store becoming international or even pushing it's competitors out of business, but more with the way they do it as well as the danger of large companies merging until they are so powerful that they control our lives in an Orwellian way (working through the government as they become powerful enough). I agree with Theodore Roosevelt's statement that the government should be more powerful than any company or trust, but there has to be a balance. I don't want a government more powerful than the companies as they are now, so I guess "busting up the trusts" is the only option at this point. I am not firmly attached to this point of view, but it makes sense in my uneducated opinion.
No Jobs: here the focus moves seamlessly from the business plan of large companies to the way they run competitors out of business - lower prices. The mega-chains are able to have such low prices by buying in bulk at a discount, outsourcing manufacturing to the lowest bidder and by paying their employees as little as they can get away with.
Here was where I was hooked on this book. I don't agree with everything she had to say, and some of the studies seemed skewed to me; for example in one study the self-employed were combined with unemployed, temp and part time workers to show how 'few' people have full-time work (Maybe it was growing up in a self-employed family, but it just doesn't seem right to imply that you don't have a "full-time" job if you are self-employed. I have seen how much harder you have to work and how much more you work when you are self employed. The study should have separated self-employed from part time + temporary workers.) However, overall I was very interested in the information conveyed in this part of the book. Manufacturing esp of clothing has always been a job for the poor who will work for little. Going back as far as industrialism has been around that has been the case. It doesn't make it right, but that is part of the industrial beast. For a brief period unions made it so that workers had decent wages, work hours, benefits and job security, but the companies found ways to work around that limitation by outsourcing. Whether outsourcing is a reasonable step to take or not, I found it fascinating that the USA as of 1997 had 30 million people in the workforce in manufacturing with almost another 25 million in retail. I have heard predictions as high as 75% of jobs being in retail within the next 25 years (though I believe the retail trend will turn long before reaching that point). Yet retail is considered a sector of young people and part time employees who are just "moving through" and are therefore paid minimum wage. It is almost fitting that the more people buy, the less money they have to spend on things (hence shopping for the lowest price) and the less they earn. I do come from the point of view that materialism is bad and that our Western society worships shopping (the things can be discarded or are easily forgotten or traded in for something new, but the shopping is 'fun', 'fulfilling', 'quality family-time', etc). My solution to the issue is to shop as little as possible and to rely on 2nd hand things as well as swaps (curriculum, clothing, etc) to avoid the temples.
No Logo: Ms Klein wraps up her 446 page book with her predictions for the future. She praised groups like Critical Mass and Reclaim the Streets as well as those who deface billboards as "taking back..the streets". Interestingly enough she comments that government or international laws and control over wage and safety issues are not the way to go, for which I applaud her. I agree with her that part of the solution is for workers to organize and create their own union-like groups that will ensure decent work conditions and wages - whether they are in the Western world or a Third World country, people have to stand up for themselves in order for it to last. Another big thing she promotes is boycotting, and while I believe it has been effective in the past and may even be effective in certain circumstances today, by the time you cut out all the companies with offensive habits or ethics, there isn't much left. While my summary is only a portion of what was talked about in the book, this quote wraps up the book neatly:
"By attempting to enclose our shared culture in sanitized and controlled brand cocoons, these corporations have themselves created the surge of opposition described in this book. By thirstily absorbing social critiques and political movements as sources of brand "meaning," they have radicalized that opposition still further. By abandoning their traditional role as direct, secure employers to pursue their branding dreams, they have lost the loyalty that once protected them from citizen rage. And by pounding the message of self-sufficiency into a generation of workers, they have inadvertently empowered their critics to express that rage without fear."
I have to say assuming No Logo is correct, the losses experienced in the job market combined with the growing division between rich and poor (as well as the "synergy" tendency to swap CEOs instead of offering employees upward mobility) has led in many ways to where we are today with a Socialist president who is trying to change America into a Socialist country as fast as he can. Before all the glamour that dazzled a majority of Americans to vote Socialist (in all fairness many of them didn't realize they were voting Socialist because the ticket said Democrat), people were worried about their jobs and their homes and assumed it was the mega-companies (and by extension 'their' party, the Republicans) who were "The Man" trying to keep them down. What they are starting to realize now is that those mega-companies have had a hold on the entire government for a long time and that Democrat or Republican doesn't make a difference and that Socialism is slapping "The Man" down with the government taking-over as much as it can which is making things even harder for the everyday citizen (thanks to skyrocketing unemployment and inflation). I can only hope that people will collectively wake up and that things will get better before there is no country left to defend.
Since I like to read a variety of books on seemingly unrelated topics, I can put the pieces together that Ms Klein skipped over because she chose to focus on one topic. There is no one cause of all our woes (though it would be so easy if there was!). The changes in our world through the industrial revolution that created employers overseeing many employees combined with the changes in our government over the last 100-150 years combined with the flight to the suburbs that led to the dissolution of extended family in favor of the nuclear family combined with No-Fault divorce which led in many ways to mothers in the workforce (which drove wages down even more than illegal immigration) and further eroded the family unit until it has become almost a joke to most people. Add on top of all that an increased dependency upon public education not only as educators, but as babysitters (just watch what happens when teachers go on strike if you have any doubt about the role parents see public education in) which gives educators the control to shape children as they see fit, then add anti-family television programming into the mix for the few hours a day that children and parents happen to be home together and it is no wonder that an entire generation (or 2 depending on how you divide things) has grown up to not care about others. They don't care about their spouses, their children nor their employees. The bottom line is the important thing and they have to take care of themselves first, everyone else is out to tear them down. I know this is a pessimistic over-simplification of what is really going on (and yes, most people do not fit this cookie-cutter description), but I hope that it illustrates the complexity of any societal issue. You cannot blame one thing, no matter how inclusive it feels on all of society's ills.
No Space, No Choice, No Jobs and No Logo that lay out where branding came from, where it has taken us and where we are going as Western society (Western Europe and Canada are included in much of the discussion, but the focus is on the USA).
No Space: Starting with a brief history of advertising in the early 1900s through the late 1990s, it is possible to see why there are very few spaces left today where companies do not display their logos. People even walk around advertising for companies and they have paid for the privilege to wear the logo. With corporate sponsorship that requires recognition with a logo, most community events and even places like parks are now 'marked' territory.
I don't know enough of my own history to really have an opinion on this. It seems to me that as long as there have been cities, there have been advertisements. Sure, the ads have changed over time, and with the invention of the television those ads are pumped into people's homes with much more intensity than they have been in the past, but when you have people who are dependent on others purchasing their goods (businessmen), you will have advertising of one sort or another. Whether it is the young orphan paid to stand on the street and call in customers that you can hear from your small apartment, or signs pasted on brick walls, ads have been around a long time. The guilds in the Middle Ages even had rules that reflected multiple producers of goods who had to advertise to compete with each other. I am willing to go so far as to say the targeting of children on TV, in schools and in community events has changed things by taking a particularly susceptible group and convincing them that materialism is a good thing and that they must "buy, buy, buy" to be happy. Ms Klein does not point this out specifically, but, as usual, I came to a different conclusion than was intended.
No Choice: here is where the book got a bit meatier. The business plan for companies like Wal-Mart, Starbucks, Borders, etc is laid out. The way these companies compete is by going into an area with the goal of "saturation" - running their competitors out of business so they are the only option. Another part of "saturation" is "synergy" where the big companies merge to become a super-company that then has even more control.
However I look at it, I can't help but think of the old Trusts from back in Theodore Roosevelt's day. My public school education left me a bit spotty on the specifics of the old Trusts (maybe it is time to work on US history with the kids this year :) ), but I believe the issue was large companies owning so much that small businesses could not compete. Not knowing all that much about economics beyond the basics, it is hard to have a well-reasoned opinion. I agree with Ms. Klein (Morgan Spurlock of Supersize Me fame brought it up too) that it is sad to see shopping centers with the same stores that all look the same in every major city across the country. The unique culture that used to exist in the different regions across the US, has become a homogenization of identical temples to the various gods of shopping. I am guilty of going to Starbuck's and enjoying it, but I don't think it is because of the brand posted outside the store. If there were other coffee shops that met the need Starbuck's meets I would probably shop there. However, there is something nice about knowing what to expect when going to one of the big box stores like Wal-mart, so I guess I am a bit of a hypocrite. I suppose ultimately the issue is not with a popular store becoming international or even pushing it's competitors out of business, but more with the way they do it as well as the danger of large companies merging until they are so powerful that they control our lives in an Orwellian way (working through the government as they become powerful enough). I agree with Theodore Roosevelt's statement that the government should be more powerful than any company or trust, but there has to be a balance. I don't want a government more powerful than the companies as they are now, so I guess "busting up the trusts" is the only option at this point. I am not firmly attached to this point of view, but it makes sense in my uneducated opinion.
No Jobs: here the focus moves seamlessly from the business plan of large companies to the way they run competitors out of business - lower prices. The mega-chains are able to have such low prices by buying in bulk at a discount, outsourcing manufacturing to the lowest bidder and by paying their employees as little as they can get away with.
Here was where I was hooked on this book. I don't agree with everything she had to say, and some of the studies seemed skewed to me; for example in one study the self-employed were combined with unemployed, temp and part time workers to show how 'few' people have full-time work (Maybe it was growing up in a self-employed family, but it just doesn't seem right to imply that you don't have a "full-time" job if you are self-employed. I have seen how much harder you have to work and how much more you work when you are self employed. The study should have separated self-employed from part time + temporary workers.) However, overall I was very interested in the information conveyed in this part of the book. Manufacturing esp of clothing has always been a job for the poor who will work for little. Going back as far as industrialism has been around that has been the case. It doesn't make it right, but that is part of the industrial beast. For a brief period unions made it so that workers had decent wages, work hours, benefits and job security, but the companies found ways to work around that limitation by outsourcing. Whether outsourcing is a reasonable step to take or not, I found it fascinating that the USA as of 1997 had 30 million people in the workforce in manufacturing with almost another 25 million in retail. I have heard predictions as high as 75% of jobs being in retail within the next 25 years (though I believe the retail trend will turn long before reaching that point). Yet retail is considered a sector of young people and part time employees who are just "moving through" and are therefore paid minimum wage. It is almost fitting that the more people buy, the less money they have to spend on things (hence shopping for the lowest price) and the less they earn. I do come from the point of view that materialism is bad and that our Western society worships shopping (the things can be discarded or are easily forgotten or traded in for something new, but the shopping is 'fun', 'fulfilling', 'quality family-time', etc). My solution to the issue is to shop as little as possible and to rely on 2nd hand things as well as swaps (curriculum, clothing, etc) to avoid the temples.
No Logo: Ms Klein wraps up her 446 page book with her predictions for the future. She praised groups like Critical Mass and Reclaim the Streets as well as those who deface billboards as "taking back..the streets". Interestingly enough she comments that government or international laws and control over wage and safety issues are not the way to go, for which I applaud her. I agree with her that part of the solution is for workers to organize and create their own union-like groups that will ensure decent work conditions and wages - whether they are in the Western world or a Third World country, people have to stand up for themselves in order for it to last. Another big thing she promotes is boycotting, and while I believe it has been effective in the past and may even be effective in certain circumstances today, by the time you cut out all the companies with offensive habits or ethics, there isn't much left. While my summary is only a portion of what was talked about in the book, this quote wraps up the book neatly:
"By attempting to enclose our shared culture in sanitized and controlled brand cocoons, these corporations have themselves created the surge of opposition described in this book. By thirstily absorbing social critiques and political movements as sources of brand "meaning," they have radicalized that opposition still further. By abandoning their traditional role as direct, secure employers to pursue their branding dreams, they have lost the loyalty that once protected them from citizen rage. And by pounding the message of self-sufficiency into a generation of workers, they have inadvertently empowered their critics to express that rage without fear."
I have to say assuming No Logo is correct, the losses experienced in the job market combined with the growing division between rich and poor (as well as the "synergy" tendency to swap CEOs instead of offering employees upward mobility) has led in many ways to where we are today with a Socialist president who is trying to change America into a Socialist country as fast as he can. Before all the glamour that dazzled a majority of Americans to vote Socialist (in all fairness many of them didn't realize they were voting Socialist because the ticket said Democrat), people were worried about their jobs and their homes and assumed it was the mega-companies (and by extension 'their' party, the Republicans) who were "The Man" trying to keep them down. What they are starting to realize now is that those mega-companies have had a hold on the entire government for a long time and that Democrat or Republican doesn't make a difference and that Socialism is slapping "The Man" down with the government taking-over as much as it can which is making things even harder for the everyday citizen (thanks to skyrocketing unemployment and inflation). I can only hope that people will collectively wake up and that things will get better before there is no country left to defend.
Since I like to read a variety of books on seemingly unrelated topics, I can put the pieces together that Ms Klein skipped over because she chose to focus on one topic. There is no one cause of all our woes (though it would be so easy if there was!). The changes in our world through the industrial revolution that created employers overseeing many employees combined with the changes in our government over the last 100-150 years combined with the flight to the suburbs that led to the dissolution of extended family in favor of the nuclear family combined with No-Fault divorce which led in many ways to mothers in the workforce (which drove wages down even more than illegal immigration) and further eroded the family unit until it has become almost a joke to most people. Add on top of all that an increased dependency upon public education not only as educators, but as babysitters (just watch what happens when teachers go on strike if you have any doubt about the role parents see public education in) which gives educators the control to shape children as they see fit, then add anti-family television programming into the mix for the few hours a day that children and parents happen to be home together and it is no wonder that an entire generation (or 2 depending on how you divide things) has grown up to not care about others. They don't care about their spouses, their children nor their employees. The bottom line is the important thing and they have to take care of themselves first, everyone else is out to tear them down. I know this is a pessimistic over-simplification of what is really going on (and yes, most people do not fit this cookie-cutter description), but I hope that it illustrates the complexity of any societal issue. You cannot blame one thing, no matter how inclusive it feels on all of society's ills.
Thursday, August 20, 2009
No Logo
What I have read of No Logo so far was very interesting. The book is about the changes that have taken place first in advertising then in jobs from the 70s until about 2000 (when the book was written). A lot has changed since the book was published, but I think the author set things up well enough that where we are today makes sense from the history she portrays. She is a bit long winded and it seems that this was her first (maybe only?) book. I disagree with her politics (Ralph Nader is always shown in a positive light), but I can appreciate her skepticism of the traditional Republican vs Democrat views. I have not finished the book, and am looking forward to what she has to say in her final section, but I fear it is becoming very political in a way I cannot agree with. For example, she has been very hard on Republicans, but never mentions names when she is pointing out something negative a Democrat did (I know history well enough to know it was a Democrat who passed the legislation or supported the bill). Also, at this point she is very supportive of groups like Critical Mass, the groups that deface billboards and other advertising and other disruptive and destructive groups. I hope to see her conclusion turn to more constructive methods of dissenting the idea of "branding", but I am not holding my breath.
More on it later.
More on it later.
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
I am not trying to equate praying to blogging, but this reminds me why I have so many started posts and so few finished ones. Once I get distracted I have a hard time picking up where I left off - that is part of the reason Motherhood was not in my 'plan' back when I thought I would have control over my life.
Interruptions and Intentions
"Try interrupting the meditations of someone who is very attached to her spiritual exercises and you will see her upset, flustered, taken aback. A person who has true freedom will leave her prayer, unruffled, gracious toward the person who has unexpectedly disturbed her, for to here it's all the same - serving God by meditating or serving Him by responding to her neighbor. Both are the will of God, but helping the neighbor is necessary at that particular moment."
-St. Francis de Sales
The summer sun is just beginning to seep through the blinds. The baby sleeps soundly beside me. My husband has already left for work. Amazingly, the older girls are still asleep in bed together, all legs and elbows, intertwined in a nest of sheets.
I slip downstairs and make some coffee. I pull out my Bible and my prayer journal and settle myself down at the kitchen table. My heart is still and so is my home. I begin to pray. "Lord, I offer everything..."
I hear a baby whimper softly over the monitor. Then silence. I utter a quick prayer of thanksgiving.
Then I begin again. "Lord..."
"Mommy?"
I jump, startled to find my toddler standing in the living room.
"I hungee," she says.
I hold back my sigh, remembering the words of St. Francis that I'd, only days before, stumbled across in a book about saints.
This is my daily bread: Interrupted prayers, unfinished sentences and essays, cold cups of coffee.
A sigh does slip out, but only softly, gently, and then I smile, opening my arms wide. My child climbs on my lap and nestles close. "I hungee," she repeats.
I leave my prayer journal and Bible behind to make her breakfast. As I fill my child's sippy cup with milk, I ask that God will me fill me up, too, and that he will perfect my intentions, that he will help me make my life a hymn of love to him, and that I will allow the many interruptions I have on any given day to help me to grow in patience and holiness.
Interruptions and Intentions
"Try interrupting the meditations of someone who is very attached to her spiritual exercises and you will see her upset, flustered, taken aback. A person who has true freedom will leave her prayer, unruffled, gracious toward the person who has unexpectedly disturbed her, for to here it's all the same - serving God by meditating or serving Him by responding to her neighbor. Both are the will of God, but helping the neighbor is necessary at that particular moment."
-St. Francis de Sales
The summer sun is just beginning to seep through the blinds. The baby sleeps soundly beside me. My husband has already left for work. Amazingly, the older girls are still asleep in bed together, all legs and elbows, intertwined in a nest of sheets.
I slip downstairs and make some coffee. I pull out my Bible and my prayer journal and settle myself down at the kitchen table. My heart is still and so is my home. I begin to pray. "Lord, I offer everything..."
I hear a baby whimper softly over the monitor. Then silence. I utter a quick prayer of thanksgiving.
Then I begin again. "Lord..."
"Mommy?"
I jump, startled to find my toddler standing in the living room.
"I hungee," she says.
I hold back my sigh, remembering the words of St. Francis that I'd, only days before, stumbled across in a book about saints.
This is my daily bread: Interrupted prayers, unfinished sentences and essays, cold cups of coffee.
A sigh does slip out, but only softly, gently, and then I smile, opening my arms wide. My child climbs on my lap and nestles close. "I hungee," she repeats.
I leave my prayer journal and Bible behind to make her breakfast. As I fill my child's sippy cup with milk, I ask that God will me fill me up, too, and that he will perfect my intentions, that he will help me make my life a hymn of love to him, and that I will allow the many interruptions I have on any given day to help me to grow in patience and holiness.
Monday, August 17, 2009
I realized a few years ago that summer is a different kind of busy than the school-year. It is less organized, but it seems I am pulled in just as many directions if not more. Then we have a mini-crisis like Jeff's car! Last week he was in a fender bender that the insurance decided was not his fault, but because his car is so old we have to decide whether it is worth it to fix it or not. The trunk leaks, the gasket around the windshield is pulling up and leaking, has been bumped twice in hit and runs (once in a parking lot and Jeff didn't even see who it was) that caused some minor body damage, the air conditioner is broken, the radio is broken, it has a small oil leak and the belt squeaks. And that was all before this accident that broke the driver's side headlight and turn signal and bent the hood up a bit - oh and of course, the registration is due today and the car still needs to go to DEQ! I don't know if DEQ will pass it with the damage or not. On the plus side, Jeff's dad (who is in CA) says he will give Jeff his Ford Taurus when the new car comes in (probably Sept). There may be something wrong with it that he will have checked out, but if it really happens it will be great for Jeff to have a newer car! Of course we would have to figure out how to get the car - Charles said he may drive it up for a visit and then fly back, which would be nice we will just have to see.
So that was last week, this week Jeff's Mom is coming for a visit (she gets in Weds) and that will be fun. Thurs we are getting pictures done with her because I have a good coupon and we sorta didn't send anything for Christmas last year so I feel guilty and I want to make it up to her. Plus, when the pictures on the wall are so old that 2 of the children are not even in them, it is time to update. Also during her visit Damien will be training to be an alter server! Yea! He has been looking forward to this for over a year. We are also planning to go to the zoo, maybe Blue Lake park and I hope to see King Henry IV at the free Shakespeare in the park this weekend. I missed the others because I forgot to put them on the calendar, so I really want to make it to this one. We will see.
If I can manage to get up at 6am, then I may even be able to post some of my thoughts on the last few books I read that are very interesting. What Americans Really Believe and The Rise of Christianity are the ones I recently finished and now I am working on a lecture series called the Decline and Fall of Rome and reading No Logo, which is about the changes first in the advertising industry and then in jobs
over the last 50 years. I have all kinds of fascinating thoughts on these books and have had no one to share them with! I only have 3 days left before No Logo has to go back to the library, so I hope I can finish it. Once I am done with No Logo, I have a Steven Hahn book that was loaned to me as well as Ugly as Sin: Why They Changed Our Churches from Sacred Places to Meeting Spaces and How We Can Change Them Back Again. I only get a chance to read when I am putting the baby down for a nap or if I go to bed early, so I guess it is a good thing that I read quickly! I love reading, maybe a bit too much.
Amazingly all the kids are up, but are letting me finish this post! I should get breakfast started though as well as dinner. 10 hours is long enough for crockpit BBQ ribs, right?
So that was last week, this week Jeff's Mom is coming for a visit (she gets in Weds) and that will be fun. Thurs we are getting pictures done with her because I have a good coupon and we sorta didn't send anything for Christmas last year so I feel guilty and I want to make it up to her. Plus, when the pictures on the wall are so old that 2 of the children are not even in them, it is time to update. Also during her visit Damien will be training to be an alter server! Yea! He has been looking forward to this for over a year. We are also planning to go to the zoo, maybe Blue Lake park and I hope to see King Henry IV at the free Shakespeare in the park this weekend. I missed the others because I forgot to put them on the calendar, so I really want to make it to this one. We will see.
If I can manage to get up at 6am, then I may even be able to post some of my thoughts on the last few books I read that are very interesting. What Americans Really Believe and The Rise of Christianity are the ones I recently finished and now I am working on a lecture series called the Decline and Fall of Rome and reading No Logo, which is about the changes first in the advertising industry and then in jobs
over the last 50 years. I have all kinds of fascinating thoughts on these books and have had no one to share them with! I only have 3 days left before No Logo has to go back to the library, so I hope I can finish it. Once I am done with No Logo, I have a Steven Hahn book that was loaned to me as well as Ugly as Sin: Why They Changed Our Churches from Sacred Places to Meeting Spaces and How We Can Change Them Back Again. I only get a chance to read when I am putting the baby down for a nap or if I go to bed early, so I guess it is a good thing that I read quickly! I love reading, maybe a bit too much.
Amazingly all the kids are up, but are letting me finish this post! I should get breakfast started though as well as dinner. 10 hours is long enough for crockpit BBQ ribs, right?
Friday, June 26, 2009
A Resolution
As I said in my very first post, I am a bit of a wimp. I am so scared of saying (or typing) the wrong thing that I sit on the sidelines, not taking a chance and waiting for the 'right' moment to step in. For example, with this blog I have 4 posts I am working on that I am not ready to post because every time I get into writing, I find some fact that I have to research to make sure I am being fair and accurate. Then, of course, I have to revise what I am claiming and by then I am out of time.
I am also afraid to let family and friends know this blog exists. I haven't even been posting any real thoughts that someone may take offense to, but still I say and type pretty much nothing. I am equally as timid in social situations as I am with this blog, so at least I am consistent. I can go into all kinds of reasons why I am this way, and a big part of it is my public school education (being ridiculed for saying or doing the wrong thing shuts you up pretty quickly especially when you are younger than almost everyone else) as well as my preference for observing and gauging situations before jumping into them. The short period in my life where I was spontaneous and took risks did not work out very well, so I have good life experience that tells me to sit back and watch life without sticking my nose in.
Lately I have been listening to KBVM (the local Catholic radio station) a lot as well as reading some interesting books related to the Faith. The message I am getting is to get off the sidelines! I have to take a chance and stretch the part of me that doesn't want to risk hurting feelings or offending anyone. One of the books I am reading is a collection of Orestes Brownson's writings, well summaries of his writings anyway. He was a well educated American who became Catholic later in life after being a Universalist Preacher, and for years published the Brownson Quarterly Review. His Review spanned the years leading up to his conversion and right through it and went on close to his death. Throughout the years he was writing, he explored many topics and in many ways discovered or confirmed his opinions through his writing. He was not afraid to take a chance and while many critics claim that if he had only done x,y,z he would have converted more souls instead of turning people away, I have to admire that he said anything. He really took a chance and that is what counts.
I've observed that many people have great ideas, fantastic ideas even, but they lack the time, energy, guts, incentive, etc to take a chance and make their idea work (myself included!). Since several of my children are planning to be entrepreneurs, I have been trying to teach them that the only differences between the people who are successful and those who are not is taking a chance and persevering. So, while this is only the first tiny baby step, I am making a resolution to start posting my thoughts whether they are researched or not. I will not be too scared to step out into the unknown and take a chance. I don't know what I will find, but I trust God that he will guide me where I should go.
I am also afraid to let family and friends know this blog exists. I haven't even been posting any real thoughts that someone may take offense to, but still I say and type pretty much nothing. I am equally as timid in social situations as I am with this blog, so at least I am consistent. I can go into all kinds of reasons why I am this way, and a big part of it is my public school education (being ridiculed for saying or doing the wrong thing shuts you up pretty quickly especially when you are younger than almost everyone else) as well as my preference for observing and gauging situations before jumping into them. The short period in my life where I was spontaneous and took risks did not work out very well, so I have good life experience that tells me to sit back and watch life without sticking my nose in.
Lately I have been listening to KBVM (the local Catholic radio station) a lot as well as reading some interesting books related to the Faith. The message I am getting is to get off the sidelines! I have to take a chance and stretch the part of me that doesn't want to risk hurting feelings or offending anyone. One of the books I am reading is a collection of Orestes Brownson's writings, well summaries of his writings anyway. He was a well educated American who became Catholic later in life after being a Universalist Preacher, and for years published the Brownson Quarterly Review. His Review spanned the years leading up to his conversion and right through it and went on close to his death. Throughout the years he was writing, he explored many topics and in many ways discovered or confirmed his opinions through his writing. He was not afraid to take a chance and while many critics claim that if he had only done x,y,z he would have converted more souls instead of turning people away, I have to admire that he said anything. He really took a chance and that is what counts.
I've observed that many people have great ideas, fantastic ideas even, but they lack the time, energy, guts, incentive, etc to take a chance and make their idea work (myself included!). Since several of my children are planning to be entrepreneurs, I have been trying to teach them that the only differences between the people who are successful and those who are not is taking a chance and persevering. So, while this is only the first tiny baby step, I am making a resolution to start posting my thoughts whether they are researched or not. I will not be too scared to step out into the unknown and take a chance. I don't know what I will find, but I trust God that he will guide me where I should go.
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
I May Be Going Crazy...
Jeff just started the next term in school and the kids have a soccer camp this week, so the days and evenings have been full. Since Jeff is working and then going to school I am on my own to get the kids ready for bed and preferably in bed before he gets home from school (this term he is in class 3 days a week). Since they are getting up early and running for a couple hours before coming home to do chores, they are actually going to sleep at a reasonable hour. Well, reasonable for us. I've been getting the kids up at 8am and they are going to bed around 9:30 and seem to be asleep by 10:30. Normally, Damien is still up at midnight, so asleep by 10:30 is amazing.
Anyway, on to why I question my sanity. I managed to get everyone to bed later than I wanted last night, so I think it was about 10:30 when I got the little girls and myself (accidentally) to sleep while the other kids were listening to audio books in the dark. Jeff was still up and doing homework until 1:30am (his Math teacher is young and seems to think that people take night classes because they have their days free for 2-3 hours of homework 3 days a week). Once he finished his Math, he had to do his online intro and homework for his Biology class, hence being up so late. I woke up at about 3:45am sneezing and then lay in bed trying to go back to sleep. I'm sure it is related to my experiences when I was younger, but when I wake up in the night I always question whether there is a reason why I am awake. So, I lay there listening for odd sounds. My house was built in 1958 and has harwood floors, so it creaks and groans a lot. We have kind of a white noise that stays on at night to mask most of the noises and to keep the little girls asleep when Jeff and I move around in the morning. Anyway, I heard something that didn't sound quite right, so knowing that Jeff was up late I decided to check it out myself. The kids were fine and all of them were asleep, but something just didn't feel right. I decided to stand in the boys room for a few minutes in the dark while I thought about what to do, then I heard a very distictive creak that only happens when someone is moving on the floor. At that point I was pretty terrified, so I picked up the boys radio (the best weapon I could find) and demanded in a loud and what I hoped was an authoritative voice "Get the hell out of my house!" That woke Jeff up who managed to find his glasses and come out turning on lights in about 20 seconds - pretty impressive for 2 hours sleep! The only thing is, there was no one there. We checked everything and the kind of locks on the doors (other than the front door which has a deadbolt) have to be locked from the inside. We both noticed an unfamiliar smell in the area where I thought I heard the noise from, but Jeff thought it was still there an hour and a half later when he got up for work. It was gone by 5:45 when I got up though. I think I just don't know my house as well as I thought I did. After Jeff and I checked everywhere (in cupboards, under the table, in closets, etc) and went back to bed, he went back out to turn on a couple lights just in case and I noticed that about 60-90 seconds after you step on a particularly creaky part of the hallway it creaks again. Even with that logical explaination I still found myself jerking awake with every little noise for probably an hour after we went back to bed.
Periodically I find myself wishing we had a decent weapon in the house for protection, but I suspect the mass media brainwashing is well entrenched because I never follow through. The fact that I had bad experiences in the night time as a child, studied Forensic Criminal Science as a credited course (the quote that sticks with me most is "everytime I think I have seen the worst thing that one human being can do to another, the next case comes in" - and the case studies were horrific) and am prone to nightmares makes me more likely to be on edge at night. It doesn't help that 2 weeks ago we had someone come into our back yard and steal a toddler carrier that hooks on your bike (the next day we had a lock on the gate) and then yesterday while the kids were at their soccer camp a store on the other side of the field was robbed. One of the robbers fired a shotgun at employees who were chasing them, but fortunately no one was hurt (though at least one guy got away). It certainly was exciting to see all the police at the other end of the field and to have other cops by us to make sure people didn't leave the way the investigation was happening. All that excitement coupled with being stressed may be making me more paranoid, or maybe my sanity is already too far gone. Oh well, Ariana will not be staying home alone for a while, at least until my nerves settle.
Anyway, on to why I question my sanity. I managed to get everyone to bed later than I wanted last night, so I think it was about 10:30 when I got the little girls and myself (accidentally) to sleep while the other kids were listening to audio books in the dark. Jeff was still up and doing homework until 1:30am (his Math teacher is young and seems to think that people take night classes because they have their days free for 2-3 hours of homework 3 days a week). Once he finished his Math, he had to do his online intro and homework for his Biology class, hence being up so late. I woke up at about 3:45am sneezing and then lay in bed trying to go back to sleep. I'm sure it is related to my experiences when I was younger, but when I wake up in the night I always question whether there is a reason why I am awake. So, I lay there listening for odd sounds. My house was built in 1958 and has harwood floors, so it creaks and groans a lot. We have kind of a white noise that stays on at night to mask most of the noises and to keep the little girls asleep when Jeff and I move around in the morning. Anyway, I heard something that didn't sound quite right, so knowing that Jeff was up late I decided to check it out myself. The kids were fine and all of them were asleep, but something just didn't feel right. I decided to stand in the boys room for a few minutes in the dark while I thought about what to do, then I heard a very distictive creak that only happens when someone is moving on the floor. At that point I was pretty terrified, so I picked up the boys radio (the best weapon I could find) and demanded in a loud and what I hoped was an authoritative voice "Get the hell out of my house!" That woke Jeff up who managed to find his glasses and come out turning on lights in about 20 seconds - pretty impressive for 2 hours sleep! The only thing is, there was no one there. We checked everything and the kind of locks on the doors (other than the front door which has a deadbolt) have to be locked from the inside. We both noticed an unfamiliar smell in the area where I thought I heard the noise from, but Jeff thought it was still there an hour and a half later when he got up for work. It was gone by 5:45 when I got up though. I think I just don't know my house as well as I thought I did. After Jeff and I checked everywhere (in cupboards, under the table, in closets, etc) and went back to bed, he went back out to turn on a couple lights just in case and I noticed that about 60-90 seconds after you step on a particularly creaky part of the hallway it creaks again. Even with that logical explaination I still found myself jerking awake with every little noise for probably an hour after we went back to bed.
Periodically I find myself wishing we had a decent weapon in the house for protection, but I suspect the mass media brainwashing is well entrenched because I never follow through. The fact that I had bad experiences in the night time as a child, studied Forensic Criminal Science as a credited course (the quote that sticks with me most is "everytime I think I have seen the worst thing that one human being can do to another, the next case comes in" - and the case studies were horrific) and am prone to nightmares makes me more likely to be on edge at night. It doesn't help that 2 weeks ago we had someone come into our back yard and steal a toddler carrier that hooks on your bike (the next day we had a lock on the gate) and then yesterday while the kids were at their soccer camp a store on the other side of the field was robbed. One of the robbers fired a shotgun at employees who were chasing them, but fortunately no one was hurt (though at least one guy got away). It certainly was exciting to see all the police at the other end of the field and to have other cops by us to make sure people didn't leave the way the investigation was happening. All that excitement coupled with being stressed may be making me more paranoid, or maybe my sanity is already too far gone. Oh well, Ariana will not be staying home alone for a while, at least until my nerves settle.
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